reflection

 After doing this last assignment and seeing this movie, I feel that I am as ready as I have ever been to advance on in life. I am six months away from graduation, and it is definitely time to start figuring out what i want to be doing with my life and exactly how i want to be spending my time. Time is not limitless. We are not limitless, and for all we know there is no existance after we die. So to live for nothing is ludacris to me. It is time to start looking for jobs, places to live, and things that I want to be doing in the next few years. I am very excited to be going onto this next part of my journey, and am thrilled that I had an opportunity to reflect on myself in this class before I finally move on to real adult-hood.

Who are you?

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1. Who are you in the eyes/perception of others? In the eyes of others, I am silly and crazy. I always say and do things before I really think about it. I am also seen as selfish, although I really do not mean to be. Like I said, I say and do things without thinking, so often times I say things that can come off as insensitive. Often times I come off as careless, just because I fail to think before acting on great occasion. And a good amount of the time I could be considered absolutely impossible to deal with, but usually that's because I am intentionally annoying somebody out of pure joy for myself. 
2. How do you see/perceive yourself? I view myself as an artist. I am a musician, and have played for years and years. I have been in a few different bands, but have always played with the same core group of guys. For a while we even played with my younger sister as lead vocalist. I like to think of myself as imaginative, even though I feel like the majority of the time I can't think of anything worth writing down. I swear there's imagination in there somewhere! I like to consider myself easy going, and usually don't have a problem with anybody else's suggestions. However, occasionally I get annoyed, and go along with whatever we are doing but make it clear that I am not exactly excited about it. But most importantly, I think, is that I am always afraid of letting people down. I have the hardest time saying no, not because I am easy going, but because I would rather just go with the flow than disagree and start some sort of silly discussion. 
3. Why are you here? For me, "here" is living. I am here to achieve all that I can achieve. I want to become something great. I want to be proud of my accomplishments. If I were not here, living, then I would not be able to do any of this.
4. What are the implications of your identity to others? Unfortunately, the implications of my identity are that my identity isn't always obviously distinguished. Depending on where I am, what I am doing and who I am wish, my identity adjusts to any situation and allows me to at least some what fit in.
5. How are you effected by the identity of others? Depending on who I am with, I am able to change how I act and what I say. If I am around my parents, or a person who demands respect, I act a certain way. If I am around peers, I may act a bit more foolish. If I am around people I do not really know, I could be mute for hours and just take in my surroundings.
6. Is identity static? Identity is absolutely not static. We are changing all the time, and with change comes change in thoughts, feelings, and ultimately our identity. Although we will always be who we were, we can still add on and become so much more. The most important part, though, is to never forget where you started or where you are coming from, and to always have your eyes on the road ahead.